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Why is God Silent To The World? – Is Silence Really Golden? You Must Have Silence To See

Why is God Silent – Is Silence Really Golden?

Yes it is…

For the past few months, I’ve been unusually quiet, at least for me as I am a “people person”, have always been and cannot truly remember a time in my life that I’ve allowed my voice rest.  Oh, it’s not gone by a long-shot so don’t worry about that!

You see, I’ve always been led by my heart and that is where I speak from.  I believe too this is why God says to not worry what you will say before you say it, meaning He will lead the way.  When you don’t prepare your “words” beforehand, whatever comes (come-what-may) is the truth that dwells within us, within our hearts.  What is our heart?  It is God’s Garden.

Where do we walk with Him – In His (1)

This is where we all are taught by God Himself; this is where He dwells among us.  When we “prepare” via our brain using the earthly tools such as pen, paper and “scripted” dialog that has been carefully orchestrated prior to the time of “sharing”, then we, I have learned, are not allowing God or His Holy Spirit to speak as we are speaking for Him, in our “Self”.  You see, in the Garden, God feeds us from The Tree of Life, the Tree that grows or produces the True Fruits of Heaven.  As we are walking with Him, He is feeding us along the way, stopping too, to allow us to drink from the River of Life.   When we have that pure “sunlight” beaming and radiating through the walls of our heart so all that is from Heaven (not Earth) gives Divine Truth (Sun/Son/Light) to the Fruit being grown, produced, shared and eaten from The Garden, our Garden, where God Himself has anointed with His Feet as every step He takes within His Garden, is Holy – thereby the soil in your/my/our Garden is too, Holy Ground.  If God truly walks with a person here on Earth, it is in the Heart of each where He takes His Rest.

But before He can Rest from all His good work He is doing in us, He must first take ROOT!


I cannot stress the importance in removing the cobwebs from every corner you can reach which is removing ALL resentment, hatred, along with giving all your enemies forgiveness.  If you don’t, you cannot see just WHOM it really is you are walking with – as the Path in your garden has no light and you walk in total darkness.  The God that you want so badly to speak to you, hold you, guide and lead you – must be seen in light, His Light and it’s in that Light, that Heavenly Divine Teaching, is what gives your Tree of Life it’s Fruit of the Spirit, the Heavenly Spirit – as it’s grown in soil watered by the One who produced the Seed itself.

The Light must replace the darkness, not sometimes, but at all times!  It’s a process, it is work, and many times, just plain hard to remove all that you’ve hoarded over the years.  All that “junk” sitting there comes in handy when we need it – especially when we need to blame our actions, emotions or life on any of those priceless items!  Meaning, as long as we have an excuse for the bad things we say or do while stating “but I’m a good person”, we allow the darkness to rule or overthrow our walk with God as He always strolls in the Light as that is where all is seen.  He requires Truth from His Friends on their walks together because it’s during those little strolls, He reconciles those hurt hearts one-by-one, step-by-step to Himself so they can be removed forever.  He teaches, loves and gives us Divine Guidance and Truth when the Light shines brightly within, which then frees you from your confined quarters and ultimately, allows you to finally “clean house”, no longer hoarding the “stuff” that restricts your daily life and walk.

Oh, okay, back to the “silence is golden” part.

Once all that garbage is dumped – after we are done complaining, whining, crying, asking “why” – projecting out our “peace”…we can FINALLY close our mouths and open our ears in order to fully “hear what the Spirit is saying”!  In our silence, we hear HIM LOUD AND CLEAR!  If we could just stop our “self” in our tracks or take a moment to “flip over that 45 record” before all those repeated words become the only thing we hear and concentrate on, it would stop our following actions that seem to place our footing farther and farther away from the music He calls from.

I have learned the hard way too many times to count.

In 2012, that’s when it all started to change.  That’s when I spoke less and listened more – to HIM.  I began to shut out the words of the world, by choice, so I could “turn up the volume”.  The teaching the Earthly Church has spread throughout the “world” is what keeps us from finding comfort in His Silence.  They are the noise.  The music and “voice” most (I said most) hear from (meaning 8 out of 10) is the REPLICATED EARTHLY VOICE and not the TRUE DIVINE HEAVENLY VOICE OF THE FATHER.  Oh, His Voice is in all of us, HIS DIVINE SPARK OR DAUGHTER, but it’s the Earthly Churches themselves that have defiled her.  They took her “virginity” which is her Divine Truth and Light, and sold it for “profit”.  What has been passed down throughout the generation’s, is NOT what was given in the BEGINNING.   Now, all she can wear is filthy, torn, defiled garments that have too many seams!  See, Heavenly GARMENTS have no seams, they are seamless.  Whenever garments have seams, the material that covers the “body”, is not whole, it has a foreign object intertwined into the fabric.

Why do you think the Roman’s cast lots for Jesus’ robe?  Didn’t His mother Mary make that robe He wore herself?  Think about this.


The problem that is soon to “Arise” (couldn’t help myself there), is that while all the righteous “church-going” people are continuing to be heard LOUD AND CLEAR, making sure EVERYONE HEARS THEM, they themselves have gone deaf.  They all talk over themselves.  They all talk over HIM!

Here on “this” earth, well, it is what it is, but up there, they themselves will be their own “stumbling block”, the stone that bruises their feet.  As they all go forward, hand-in-hand, talking all the way, they have no clue what Door they are to walk through, especially when there will be 3 presented before them.  They think all the doors will be open and they have access to an “OPEN HEAVEN” –  but what happens when they have to chase that Heaven to find the Open Door?  Things are not going to be as they think (but again – so many ARE waking up in the silence most avoid) so it’s imperative to walk in that as it is there, one is handed the Keys which will allow ALL DOORS TO BE OPENED regardless.


Well, Enoch, Elijah and Jesus each have a “Door”…each being one for “a” Bride, “a” Groom, and “the” Guests.  Which one is which?

Enoch was taken to be God on the Throne’s “Witness” to events PRIOR to the Flood, while Elijah was taken up to be “Witness” to God’s Throne AFTER the Flood.

What does that mean?

Enoch is before the “separation” I believe, Elijah after it.  Enoch is the Scribe who used his mind and his hands while Elijah is the Prophet who used his mouth and feet.  Both are part Heavenly and part Earthly.  Or, are they?  You decide but remember, Heaven and Earth are opposites and as such, half will always be in conflict with the other half.  It is how we were/are born…it’s the Heart/Soul and the Mind/Spirit.  Elijah spoke via his Heart which directed the PATH of his Feet…at times it was Earthly, at times it was Heavenly.  What about Enoch?  He wrote with his Hands which were led by his Mind.  Was he at times led to write from his Earthly mind/spirit or his Heavenly Mind/Spirit which guided the Hands he wrote with and the words scribed?


That we, all who are “of God’s Creation” are both, we are the good and the bad, we are Heaven and we are Earth.  We are the Good Guy and we are the Bad Guy and when we bind “the enemy back to the pits of Hell”, we are binding part of ourselves – yes, we are cursing OURSELF!  Again, we can go back to the Bible to when the Arch Angel Michael told Satan, “The Lord rebuke you!”  He did not say “I”!  This shows he gave it to the Lord to do so.  This is an entirely different direction that I would love to discuss but I’m trying so hard to stay on point here so I will leave it at that and hopefully soon, I can finish my page on that specific subject alone.

The Spirit and the Soul must start walking on the same Path; it’s these two “Sisters” that must cross the Great Divide, conquer the elements that have kept them apart or at odds with each other.  These are the twin granddaughters of Noah, or, are they the twin sons of Tamar and Judah?  Here on earth we call Israel and USA sisters, we use “she” instead of “he”.  Will that be different in Heaven?  Is Heaven the two brothers?  Whichever, they are still siblings…they’re family.

Is this the “brother against brother” God spoke of?  I believe it is.  Unfortunately, we can only see earthly manifestations due to our limitations of our Heavenly sight.  We are blind to see the Heavenly or the Divine, therefore we bring to life what was not meant for us – as we are ignorant to most of the written Word given in Scripture.  We are not “all that” and in our arrogance we have brought to life that of which should have been never born in our world.

I believe wholeheartedly, that The Father of ALL Creation, all the Heavens and Earth, the ONE that is nameless for there was nothing or no one before HIM to name HIM, that it is THIS FATHER who is THE GREAT SPIRIT!  It is HE that is the GREAT LIGHT, the PURE LIGHT and it is HE that is addressed in the Lord’s Prayer below:

 Matthew 6:9-13 21st Century King James Version (KJ21)

In this manner therefore pray ye: Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be Thy name.

10 Thy Kingdom come. Thy will be done on earth, as it is in Heaven.

11 Give us this day our daily bread.

12 And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.

13 And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. For Thine is the Kingdom, and the power and the glory forever. Amen. 

I’ve taken Luke from the Amplified Bible which speaks also of the same prayer the Lord taught them to pray when His disciples asked Him “how to” pray: 

Luke 11:2-4 Amplified Bible (AMP)

He said to them, when you pray, [a]say:
b]Father, [c]hallowed be Your name.
d]Your kingdom come.

‘Give us each day our [
e]daily bread.

‘And forgive us our sins,
For we ourselves also forgive everyone who is indebted to us [who has offended or wronged us].
And [
f]lead us not into temptation [[g]but rescue us from evil].’”


  1. Luke 11:2 I.e. as a model or pattern.
  2. Luke 11:2 Later mss add phrases from Matt 6:9-13 to make the two passages closely similar.
  3. Luke 11:2 I.e. set apart, keep and treat as holy, revere.
  4. Luke 11:2 A plea for God’s kingdom to be inaugurated on earth.
  5. Luke 11:3 I.e. life’s essentials.
  6. Luke 11:4 I.e. lead us away from situations where we are vulnerable and have the opportunity to sin. God does not tempt man (see James 1:13) but does allow man to be tested.
  7. Luke 11:4 NU omits.


It is HIS Spirit that is UPON the Throne of Heaven…the One who sits upon THE Throne does so with the full SPIRIT OF THE FATHER and therefore it is in the One who rules over all UNDER that Throne and are bound to Him who governs those Heavenly realms from that Heavenly place.

Didn’t Jesus say “I am IN the Father and THE FATHER is in Me?”  Here, it shows that Christ was the SPIRIT that resided in the Father who sat on the Throne – and that He (Christ) was THE FATHER (THE TRUTH/GREAT SPIRIT OF ALL CREATION).

Just as there are realms – there is a “tier” system, sort of.  It’s how I understand or see it.  You can look at it from one angle as we look at our physical body parts; the head, the torso and the lower leg/feet area.  This can be a 3 Tier (Father/Son/Holy Spirit) separation system.  We can then divide into more tiers after that but the main “body” is firstly in these 3 portions.  In each section, there are valuable divisions and each play a part, or have a Divine job assignment, which eventually, gets us back HOME!  Each of these 3 major parts are a door:  Enoch, Elijah and Jesus.  Since we are both sides as previously noted above, man as we know “Man” to be, has 2 sides, the left and the right – hence, the Double-Minded Man stated in James.  When you see that each half has 9 sections, we have 18 – your 666, the number of Man.  Each part of our 3-tiered layers has 3…when that body/tier is divided as told in the Scriptures, you have 6 per each layer/tier/realm.  In the end of it all, we have to get back to 3, then as it was in the Beginning, to the ONE.

There is a reason we have the number of bones in our extremities that we do, it’s not a fluke.  It’s okay if you are having trouble understanding, seeing or accepting what I am saying here, but do me a favor, file it.  File it away so when the time comes, you can pull it out of that long extended file cabinet; trust me, you’ll need it!  (Update:  I’ve been working on this post for the past few months – I type it little by little, it’s been a labor of love you could say.  But today, in the early AM hours, I clicked on a YouTube video about numbers.  These weren’t just any numbers, they were 3, 6, 9…and how these numbers are the base for all things.  I about fell off my couch!  I will add the link at the bottom when I am finished, if I can find it again as it just appeared or “popped up” in the “recommended” section of my channel.  Just saying…)


So many people around the world have become “loners” these past 7 years or so.  Where once they were surrounded by hundreds of friends, family, loved ones – well, maybe not hundreds, but way more than the number has dwindled down to in recent years, they have all but been abandoned now to walk The Path alone.  This should be seen as the blessing it is instead of the punishment it’s taken as.  This is God the Father calling you out – out of the world of chaos and noise.  He needs your full attention and that my friends, is only possible when He is the One and Only!

I think back now of how many tears I cried as I wondered what I had done that was so wrong to deserve the destruction of my life, ultimately leading me into complete isolation, where I would wake up realizing I was alone…utterly alone.

At first, my mind raced (conversations back and forth of what I should have done and was going to do) and this, I later realized, still kept my attention toward the world that had broken my heart.  If I could just “shut myself up” and be quiet for two seconds, I would see He was calling me to Him just as I prayed over and over for Him to do.  When I learned to stop “festering” and to finally throw-in the “white towel” into the boxing ring, ah, this is when He started to answer my questions and allowing me, no one special really, to know His Heart…to know the “why” I had mumbled out of my mouth too many times to count.  It was at that moment, I started to relish and adore the silence and isolation.  It was my time with My Father and He had finally turned His Face toward me because I turned my face toward Him.  I woke up in complete excitement to what the day of “God School” would hold and yes, I LOVED HOMEWORK!

As of today, this very moment in time, I still feel the exact same way and I have long given up the world that kept me captive for too long.  I’m a loner, a rebel, and I could not be more happy – nor have I been happier as what I have been taught is BETTER THAN THE GREATEST STORY EVER TOLD!  I no longer ask why – well okay, sometimes it just slips out but within seconds, I shake my head and look up saying, “Oh why did I say that Lord?  I know why!  Thank you!”  I know that nothing is allowed unless He has a divine reason for it or if it’s to be used for His Divine Glory, period.  I’m not saying it’s easy, a smooth sail all the way across the waters but I know what it’s not…it’s not to punish or to spank, His reasons are always so so so much higher!  I have to put the cherry on top here and say that God has never blessed me more than He is now.  Not that He is giving me material items, or has become my own personal “Genie in a bottle”, but, He miraculously provides for my needs in ways no one would believe unless you could see them yourselves.  It’s been the most loving act of LOVE, GOODNESS, KINDNESS, COMPASSION and PEACE one could imagine…I linger it.  Thank you is such a simple everyday word but that is all I can seem to mutter these days.  I always ask that HE search my heart for all I have has filled every single place in those 2 words…it’s saturated with my entire being, my entire all and I know, HE knows this!

Thanksgiving Eve – this was a good night.  At the last-minute, plans changed for where I would go for dinner.  I had now decided that I would cook my own Thanksgiving meal but I had not saved enough money from my disability check to do so.  Wednesday, I prayed, laid it all out and gave it to the Father.  I said I needed a miracle and I knew HE had this…I knew HE had me!

I went to the Farmer’s Market to get some huge sweet potatoes they had a sale on and some fresh green beans.  I then drove to the grocery store hoping I could pull together enough money to buy a turkey, and maybe, just maybe, one or two sides.  As I was sitting in my car, I decided to check my account one more time to see my exact balance, not expecting it to be over 20.00.  To my utter amazement, I not only had 20.00, but now I had $200.00!  Yes, yes, and yes!  I cried.  HE did it again!  I jumped out of that car and had my 3-year-old granddaughter Trey-Olivia and my Bo with me, who is now 11.  I was so filled with joy – I was like a little child going into a toy store!  I texted my son Taylor and daughter Tara on my way home telling them, “WE ARE HAVING TURKEY TOMORROW!”

My kids always go to their dad’s side for Thanksgiving, splitting it with both my side and theirs.  Since the death of my son Trey, or until about 2012/2013, I didn’t care to attend any feasts or celebrations as they just reminded us of the empty plate, the vacant chair at the table and the person we missed so much.  I was fine eating cereal, but I always made them go to their dad’s and told them to have a wonderful time and to please not worry about me – I was right where I wanted to be.  See, prior to my son Trey’s death, I would start decorating my entire house for the holidays the first week in November…opening it up to anyone and everyone as this was my favorite time of year.  Now, it was the season I wanted to skip and avoid the most, until the arrival of my grandchildren.  I want them to have the same happiness my children had, the traditions, the love and the light we shine upon others and not the sadness.  From now on, I will always hold these days of togetherness in my home and not the home of those who still haven’t learned to walk the path of the talk they speak.  (PLEASE SEE MY NEXT BLOG POST/ARTICLE FOR THE FULL STORY ON THANKSGIVING 2017 AND HOW THE LORD BLESSED THIS DAY AND WHY.)   Update:  I never finished this Thanksgiving Day post, but trust me, it was a total “God-Thing”!  He’s so good!


It is!  All of HIM is right there for all to see and truth-be-told, it’s always been there from the very start, The Beginning surely told The End.

The “Mind” or the Spirit, is what was there in the Beginning – it was quiet, silence was common than the noisy voices talking over each other.  How do we know this?  Abraham tells us through his story.  It was in that stillness, he first heard “The Voice”.  Others did not hear what Abraham did – this is why his “people” grew as it did, they followed the one who had hearing, who was no longer deaf and followed him wherever The Voice in the Wilderness told him to go.


This is the good part…Abraham broke “his father’s idols” and then left the city of his father, family and his childhood.  He broke away from the pack.  He left the noisy voices of those who continually prayed to the “gods” and those that lived in wealth/security worrying about nothing as they could not see how anything or any place could be better than the city they lived.  It was their own special paradise you could say and hey, “if it ain’t broke, why fix it?”  Status Quo standing at status quo.

It was Abram’s (later changed to Abraham after leaving the land of his father Terah) heart that was called to, which in turn, turned his head onto the Path into the Wilderness of the Silent God, or Holy Spirit.  The heart must be the first to be broken, then healed, being renewed so that IT can lead the head to the Divine Truth, knowledge of the Hidden Mysteries so the “Head” of the body could be healed too, thereby allowing no one to perish due to their “lack of knowledge”.  This is Heavenly knowledge.

John the Baptist was loud, very vocal in his “call” or “calling”, while Jesus spoke in a much calmer, softer voice…so what is this parable saying?  Cut the head of John the Baptist off, so he can decrease (earthly teacher) and Jesus can increase (Heavenly Teacher).  This is why John sent his own disciples to Jesus – to be WITH Jesus to learn the next layer that was needed.  They crossed the River Jordan which is the crossing of the waters up, where we too have to cross, through the “sky” and above…the Heavenly waters of baptism.  Water baptism allows the cleansing of all earthly things to prepare the “body” for its FIRE baptism of the Heavenly Holy Spirit.


Leonardo da Vinci painting of John the Baptist “pointing up” to Heaven…I know!  I know!  How good is that?


So now, once again, we look at this time of Hanukkah and the Festival of Lights.  The lighting of the Menorah, cleansing of the Temple (us) and the removal of the idol placed there by the Babylonians.  What is this?  This is what I believe is going to happen, soon…very soon.  This is my belief of our approximate journey as we walk to and on the Path Home:


First, just as Moses parted the Red Sea, which is the division of our hearts, showing we are both Earthly and Heavenly, showing the 2 Laws, Law of God (Law of the Heart) and the Law of Man (Law of the Land), Jesus will now clearly divide the Waters as we follow His Path up.  The Waters are above us and all will be taken up together, the wheat and the tares, but one goes left and one goes right.  It is during this crossing that the darkness is upon all as we will be cleansed via these Waters.  The Earthly Spirit will be removed from these bodies while the “transforming body” prepares to receive the “Heavenly Holy Spirit” – hence, your 3 days of darkness.  This is the time all are being “healed” and the corruptible will become incorruptible.   This is when our Soul departs from our body, but our Spirits remain, or our Spirit departs and our Soul remains.  One is Heavenly and one is Earthly so if they are not in sync with each other, they cannot be either/or, so they remain in limbo or what the Catholics call “purgatory” where the world sees them as demons.  What is bound on Earth is bound in Heaven, remember?  This is why.  Oh wait…a Spirit without a body is a Ghost, correct?  So, yes, a Soul without a body would be called a Demon.  (The Lord just literally downloaded in me, as He is downloading all of this as I type.)

This is why God had to blow into Adams nostrils…to give him life!  The Soul, she is looking for her Heavenly Body of Christ and until she learns, or better yet, REMEMBERS the Truth from which she came, she must be “shaken” awake, hence earthquakes in diverse places.  The Soul will sojourn until she sees a spark, a flame, a light that guides her to the Path she takes Home.  This is why they lived in “tents” in the desert, a temporary dwelling.  A house, and the going in and coming out of, is a permanent residence, not as easy to pack up and move from due to the “payments” that must be made to live there.  That’s why they must be knocked down and the residents “removed”.

Let me back up here…prior to this, as we come out of the Waters, which is a baptism for some, cleansing for others, you must be able to recognize the Lord.  Remember, Peter and the others did not recognize Him on the water as He was walking to their boat, and it was not until He called out to them in the storm, allowing them to hear His voice, that Peter finally got out of the boat.  He was blind to the Man walking upon the water until He, Jesus, called out to them.  They heard His Voice and THEN their eyes were focused in on WHO it was that called!  Peter was willing and totally able, but the minute he looked down (back down to where he just came from, hence going back in the mind to the world he knew before), he no longer could stand in that pure faith which he needed to walk to the open arms of Jesus.  When he started to sink, Jesus pulled him up and out of the water and immediately took His place beside them in the boat.  You cannot receive the Divine Glory of God the Father if you continue to look back into your corrupt Earthly body (prison) as Peter did.  Peter’s transformation was only temporary and not full-on as he had not shaken all the dust from his feet, obviously!      So, now yet again, he had to be shaken awake a bit harder each time he did this showing really, his lack of faith.   The Door was open, he just couldn’t see it.

The earthly will recognize Earthly and the Earthly will recognize the Heavenly.  Heaven and Earth are opposite so what you receive here, is not what you will see there.  All of these errors must be made right…the Truth must be shown, taught and ACCEPTED (every knee will bow) before receiving the Glorified version, which is baptism via the Fire of Heaven.  The Fire Baptism is for those that are ready to receive – the flesh must be clean when coming to the Altar of God so the Invisible can be seen by the Visible Father and the Visible can return and be remembered by the Invisible Father in Whom Christ Jesus resides, in Spirit, as He IS THE SPIRIT!.  All go back from whence they came…but not until they are no longer ignorant of THE FATHER, THE SON AND THE HOLY OF HOLIES SPIRIT – THE MOTHER/DAUGHTER – TRUTH, FAITH AND WISDOM.  This is when the Earth is made New and New Jerusalem comes down…The healed “Body” is ready to receive.  This is the New Heaven and New Earth – the Spirit and the Soul.  They are paired as they were in the Beginning, married, making them ONE!

This is the final “Rapture” of the Bride of Christ – when She (the Soul) is brought back to Her original HOME!  Her Light has come back through Christ.  Just as the Wo-man brings life into being here on earth, it is the Man who delivers them to Everlasting Life in Heaven.

Just as the Waters were parted in the Beginning, then again parted by Moses, they now must come back together as the wall of waters must come down (Pharaoh’s Army on the dry sand chasing the Israelites as they walked across via the ocean floor) but not before He called His people out of the Waters.  He let the very last one come upon the dry shore before “closing the door” behind them.  Remember too, it wasn’t until ALL were “on the other side” that the dross that crossed with them (the tares) showed their true colors as to who they really were.  Same pattern as then will occur and they too will be “shaken” by the Earth and separated from the others via the “line in the sand” (earthquake separation line).


The 7 Mountains, 7 Hills or 7 Continents, hold up, set under Babylon, which is the City of the God who rules with Earthly Laws, Truth, they have raised this city up and until their Seals are broken, their “words/mysteries” released, these Mountains cannot rise or fall as they still hold something that is “hidden” and the Lord has told us that NOTHING will be hidden!  Behind or under each Seal (which is the tomb door/stone that needs rolled away) or Scroll which must be opened so it is known, visible.  When these 7 “Seals” or “7 Truths of the 7 Churches” a/k/a The 7 Fold Spirits of Heaven are opened, (given as Heavenly Gifts and NOT plagues or curses), the good fruit can be eaten from the Tree of Life.  Then her,  Path, (the Soul’s) becomes lit and becomes brighter as each is broke open – so it’s imperative those walking ahead of her, carry enough oil (Truth) to light their 7 candle Menorah so she and the others who are crippled, can be healed and find their way Home.  They need to be able to see those Lampstands shining in the dark, lighting the way, thereby restoring sight, no longer keeping them blind and behind the Walls of Jericho.  It was in her dark place, behind the walls that She the Soul, became a Harlot (Rahab who ended up marrying Joshua).

I believe that the 7 Mountains are the 7 Angels, which are kings/gods/rulers and each of these kings have 10 tribes under them (ie. Jacob and 10 sons by Leah and 2 maidservants/Haman had 10 sons) and these are the 10 Nations the church today speak of (yes, I see these as the same 10 Nations of the church prophecy/Revelations).  When you times these 10 Nations 7 times, you get 70, same number of “people/tribe” of Jacob that accompanied him to Egypt during the famine and Joseph’s time in Pharaoh’s house.

This is your “7 Heads and 10 Horns” of Revelations…the 2 Hands of God, each hand having 5 fingers for a total of 10 fingers that must break open the Heavenly Mysteries and Truth by unsealing each Scroll as they arise up through the 7 Heavens, or 7 Kingdoms or 7 Realms of the 7 Arch Angels, also called “The Seven-fold Spirits or Fruits”.

I see this near time as all here on this earth, passing through on the dry strip of land which is actually the bottom of the sea, with the 2 major walls of water holding back it’s waves until the last has passed over onto the waiting shores of what they thought would be “The Promised Land”.  It’s during this time, the heavier the load one tries to carry, the easier it is for them to get caught in the muddy sand, needing a major rescue, delaying their steps that carry them quickly to the other side.  Think of this for a minute.  Remember the movie The Ten Commandants?  It was those that loaded all they had onto their backs, wagons and servants that were at the end of the pack.  These are those that started to panic when they looked behind them to see Ramsey’s army, all on horses or chariots in fast pursuit of the Israelites!  Another problem when bringing your items of wood, silver, gold, copper, etc. which puts you at the end of the line, is you cannot hear the “Voice” that is leading the exodus as he is at the front giving the orders – making and/or transforming, whatever he original said, into “hear-say” by time it reaches the end.  Do you understand what I just said here?

It’s also the “metals” or the riches/possessions they carried along this journey that was ultimately the materials used to make the Golden Calf, the false idol!

Take nothing with you on this time of exodus from this land.  No silver, no gold,  copper, no metals, nothing…you must be “as light as a feather” so nothing is holding you down, or back – the lighter you are, the faster you run, you fly, you cross the finish line and will hear “first-hand” from the Voice or the Head that is directing your feet, your Path.  I pray that the Spirit of the Divine Holy Creator, The Father of ALL, grants all of you the ears to hear what He is saying right here.

This post has taken months to finish.  Not to the lack of words, but because I had to make sure they weren’t just “words”; that they were beyond what could be uttered from my mouth or earthly wisdom.  So many times I opened this document, ready to sit down and finish it but for whatever reason, it never happened, until now.  I feel I still have more to add, hopefully this will be sooner than later because I know in my heart, time is of the essence when understanding the Mysteries of Heaven…what was released out to all Peoples to uncover and hear.  Is, understanding the true TRUTH of His Heavenly Mysteries the uncovering of “The Pearl”?  I believe it is most definitely could be and if not “the”, most assuredly it’s “a” pearl.

I will say nothing of dates but I will say that we are in every month, every week and every season right now.  The world does not know how to count the way God does, only a few can seem to understand “the Face” on the wheel of time!



BBC Travel – Festival of Lights  (The below images and descriptions have been copied from this link and website; shared here for fair and educational uses only.

Bright lights of Christmas (Credit: AFP/Getty Images)

Bright lights of Christmas
Since Neolithic times, man has gravitated toward fire, especially during the dark days of winter when luminous celebrations set gloomy nights aglow. From Scotland’s Hogmanay to Nepal’s Balachaturdashi, light plays a starring role in holidays around the world, brightening skies, spirits – and travel itineraries – alike. 

This shimmering stunner of a Christmas tree in Tokyo’s Shiodome – where marine life combines with festive illuminations in this year’s theme of White Christmas in the Sea – illustrates a universal holiday truth: in the dark days of winter, nothing is more welcome than a luminescent celebration. (AFP/Getty Images)


A blazing Scottish new year (Credit: Getty Images)

A blazing Scottish new year
Scots ring in Hogmanay on 31 December with a blazing celebration inspired by Gaelic and Viking traditions, which held that fire burned off the bad spirits of the old year and invited fresh spirits for the new. Today, revellers dance in torchlight processions, swing burning fireballs and burn a replica Viking ship, pictured here in a celebration in Edinburgh. (Getty Images)


Bulgaria’s Christmas of caring (Credit: AFP/Getty Images)

Bulgaria’s Christmas of caring
Eggnog, gifts and stockings rarely come into play for Orthodox Christians, who view Christmas as a time to fast, pray and care for the poor. Many Orthodox Christians –found predominantly in Belarus, Greece, Romania, Russia and Ukraine – celebrate the holiday on Epiphany (7 January) when they light a small fire of frankincense and palms (a religiously significant plant) to commemorate the wise men’s gifts to baby Jesus, and light candles to represent the light of Christ, seen here in the Alexander Nevsky Cathedral in Sofia, Bulgaria. (AFP/Getty Images)


A triumph of good over evil in India

A triumph of good over evil in India
On a new moon night in late autumn, Hindus around the world light diyas, or oil lamps, to signify the triumph of light over darkness, good over evil, knowledge over ignorance, and hope over despair. One of the most important Hindu festivities, Diwali (which falls between mid-October and mid-November), sees celebrants shop, feast, clean their homes, dress in their finest and light fireworks. Pictured here, widows celebrate the festival of lights in Mathura, India. (Hindustan Times via Getty Images)
_____________________________________________________________________________________ **Correction:** A previous version of this caption incorrectly stated the timing of Diwali. This has now been fixed.


A Jewish festival of lights (Credit: Getty Images)

A Jewish festival of lights
When a scarce supply of sacred oil miraculously burned for eight days in Jerusalem’s Holy Temple in the 2nd Century BC, the tradition of Hanukkah was born. Today, Jewish people observe the Festival of Lights – which may occur between late November to late December – by lighting one branch of a menorah, pictured here in Washington DC, each night for eight nights. (Getty Images)
A crown of candles in Scandinavia (Credit: AFP/Getty Images)
A crown of candles in Scandinavia
In this Scandinavian holiday commemorating Saint Lucia, a Christian martyr known for her service to the poor, the eldest daughter in a family dresses up as in a white robe and glowing candle-decked crown to serve her parents mulled wine and Lucia buns, a traditional sweet pastry. St Lucia Day is celebrated on 13 December, the winter solstice in the old Julian calendar and a pagan festival of lights. (AFP/Getty Images)


Fire fights ice in an old Gaelic holiday (Credit: Getty Images)

Fire fights ice in an old Gaelic holiday
Got a case of the mid-winter blues? Take a cue from the ancient Gaelics, who waged a war against winter with bonfires, candles and torches of fire. The pagan festival known as Imbolc marks the halfway point between the winter solstice and the spring equinox – typically around 4 February – and encourages the rejuvenation of the land and the return of the sun. Fire festivals take place in locations throughout Wales, Ireland, Scotland and England, including the town of Huddersfield (pictured). (Getty Images)


Iraqi Kurds burn away winter (Credit: AFP/Getty Images)

Iraqi Kurds burn away winter
It’s the budding blooms of spring rather than the cold of winter that ring in the New Year for celebrants of Persian or Zoroastrian descent, including Iraqi Kurds, seen here celebrating with torches in Akri, Iraq. The ancient holiday of Nowruz falls on 21 March, the first day of spring, and is celebrated with feasts and bonfires, a tribute to the fire-worshipping origins of Zoroastrianism and a means to burn away sins in order to usher in a fresh start. Travellers can ring in Nowruz in countries such as Iran, Armenia, Turkey, Russia and Georgia. (AFP/Getty Images)


A Nepalese night of worship (Credit: AFP/Getty Images)

A Nepalese night of worship
In Kathmandu’s Pashupatinath Temple (the most sacred temple of god Shiva), Hindu pilgrims celebrate the holy night of Balachaturdashi in late November or early December by holding an all-night oil lamp vigil to pray for deceased relatives. Night-long chants and dances pay homage to the god. (AFP/Getty Images)


Tamil India’s full moon festival (Credit: AFP/Getty Images)

Tamil India’s full moon festival
An ancient feud between Hindu gods Brahma and Vishnu form the foundation of Karthigai Deepam, one of the oldest and most important Tamil holidays, celebrated on the night of a full moon in late November or early December in South India. Hindu devotees light oil lamps, pictured here in Bangalore, as an auspicious symbol to ward off evil spirits and usher in prosperity. (AFP/Getty Images)


A uniquely African American holiday (Credit: Washington Post/Getty Images)
A uniquely African-American holiday
A pan-African heritage, a common history of slavery and a Swahili phrase (matunda ya kwanza, meaning “first fruits of the harvest”) gave rise to Kwanzaa, a weeklong celebration of African-American culture, first celebrated in the United States in 1966. The holiday focuses on seven principles including unity, creativity and faith, represented by a seven-pronged candelabra, or kinara, seen here in a Kwanzaa celebration in Washington DC. Travellers to DC can visit cultural exhibitions, such as Spirit of Kwanzaa, an annual celebration held at the John F Kennedy Center for the Performing Arts that spotlights African dance, song and poetry. (Washington Post/Getty Images)



Due to the changing “time-periods/zones” of the Northern/Southern Hemispheres, and Seasons, Festival of Light celebrations are held throughout the world from August to March and although we, or maybe it was just me, assumed it was exclusive to THIS holiday season only (Hanukkah/Christmas).  I did not consider the Chinese New Year’s Floating Lantern Festival and a similar festival in Taiwan, in the same celebratory manner as the Jewish Festival of Chanukah.  Actually, it wasn’t until a few months ago that I studied the importance of these worldwide “lighting of lights” ceremonies, their cultural importance to their heritage and beliefs.

Why is the this important?  It’s the lighting of “candles/flames/wicks” which as I said above, is the lamps to our feet as we travel the Path to our Heavenly Home…This shows that we are not exclusive to this knowledge/understanding and to be honest, Christians really, or at least I think, are the least knowledgeable, educated and spiritually discerned regarding not only their importance, but also their festivals and how they are celebrated, including the established length of time for each.  Most truly, are clueless!  They have no idea who is leading them through the darkness, whom those “lights” represent and how through them, as we continue to move forward, it’s these Lights that give us HIS LIGHT – THE LIGHT, the Divine Pure Heavenly Truth that engulfs and envelopes us, which then ultimately, Raptures us Home – to HIM!  This my dear friends, is the Heavenly Wedding March, the Processional Path that leads to being ONE in marriage where your white wedding down is your Heavenly Garment of Radiant Light.

It is then and there that Self is no longer individual, one of the earth as it becomes part, once again, of the Original LIGHT OF THE CREATOR, who is Spirit.  It is then in the ONE, that we then become a true Brother, Sister and Bride of Christ; it is then and only then, can one be called a Born Again Christian and a member of THE TRUE CHURCH OF GOD!

Other Festival of Light Celebrations Throughout the Year Around the World

You can do your own research, your own homework and I think we all should.  He has given us a gift, a true gift of the internet.  Never before have we had the ability to have all we need, right at our fingertips so we can truly know the Heart of God, the Mysteries, and the Divine Heavenly Truth as it was in the Beginning.

Thank you my dear friends, I hope this finds you all well.  I will try to continue these posts in a bit more timely manner in the future!

Remember, do not be anxious…do not worry, HE HAS YOU…HE HAS THIS!  Ask for Divine Heavenly Peace, Love and Wisdom…remove all the darkness from your heart, forgive, forget and rid yourself of this world and it’s garments that make you feel defiled, ugly, unworthly, unloved, unseen and abandoned.  You are none of those things!  He is LOVE and LOVE IS COMING DOWN!

See you soon!

Hugs, blessings and love to all – wishing all a very Merry Christmas and even a greater New Year!

Mary Beth (FriendofHeaven)

A big fat THANK YOU to all my loving friends who have been so kind to me throughout my “bad blogging” – from start to now, thank you, thank you, thank you!  Special hugs to Tatiana!


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5 New Video Posts; Olive is the Heart; The Living Word Inside Us; Serving the Lord 24/7

Well, hello there!  Please let me apologize for the silence these past few days.  Actually, I’ve not been silent at all but just not able to sit down and properly “Blog” they way a true “Blogger” should!  lol  lol  I know, I’m not a very good one, Blogger that is but know this, I try very hard!

I have many videos I recorded, some from 2 weeks ago and others finished within that time up until yesterday.  I was trying to write posts with each but I’m just too far behind right now.  I thought I would at least post some of these with a few more to come and I will just have to write the posts at a later date.  Thank you everyone for your patience and hanging in there with me.  It’s an exciting time right now prophetically speaking of course, and March and April look to be a time of watching like never before!


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REVISED CORRECT VIDEO~Why Do People Who Don’t Believe in God Watch Videos About Jesus/God?

Just a quick note regarding this video; at the beginning, I stated that I would probably have comments/emails after this video – I never made it that far!  I was going to speak about something else and that is what I was talking about but unfortunately, I never quite made it back to that subject…I’ll do it next time.  Thanks, I just didn’t want anyone to think they missed something there!



Why God? Why Me? House/Family/Money Gone? Why Did You Put Me Thru All That? Cocky In Our Walk w/God


Don’t Cross The Street Without Me – The Lights Are Changing Fast – Message 2/6/2014


Child of My Heart hear My Words well – no one, no one will harm you and no one will take what I have blessed, away from My Divine Eyes. Allow all you see and here to be forgotten – it is not of ME and therefore you should not walk toward those that speak them. It is the stranger at the door that you must keep locked out.

While the world sleeps, My World is wide awake and ready for what the New Day brings. Look to ME – see what I bring upon the sleepers of the world as they cannot see me come in their dreams. Turn from these now and let ME arrange My Divine Appointments in their unknowing life for they cannot see My Hands at work.

Remember all what I have spoken in days past for those Words were truly of ME. Scoffers have always been and will always be. I ordain the ears and eyes of all Children, to see and hear what I CHOSE to be so…do not fret over souls that are removed from understanding of the appointed times and dates. Cross not the street to seek who do not seek ME for the enemy deceives the light’s access to the crossing and surely tries to detain My Children in the middle of the road where the chance of death is centered between the lines. I hold the hands of My Children when I have brought their footing off the sidewalk and onto the roadway, so do not walk without My Fatherly Hand of Protection that pulls you away from the uncontrolled cars which drive in the fast-lane, or those that travel confused down the one-way street. Leave the driving to ME also –  for there is no other who drives and controls the passage of dear ones better than I. Do I not have a perfect driving record? Do I not control all the lights at each and every intersection controlling all traffic? Do My Actions and Words not say when one must stop, go or yield to on-coming danger? Surely this I do! Not all is good that waits on the other side of the street My Children that the Children of this earth try to cross to. This is why too My Children, you must watch the signs for the crosswalk to be safe and see clearly the flashing lights when the “DON’T WALK” is lit and shown.

When one is not paying attention nor holding My Mighty Hand or following My Lead and Footsteps I tell them to, many unaware and unawake Children sleepwalk into on-coming traffic that leaves them mangled and hurt, some even drug behind the racing cars for miles until they are finally released from the underbelly of the beast that pulled them far from the place of impact where they now cling to life only by My Grace, the Grace and Mercy of their Father in Heaven.

What is left of these Children who walked while they slept? How do they rise from this now-broken, critical state that dangles them between life and death? What can be done to rescue them from the yellow-centered line they now lay directly across, vulnerable to more dragging and abuse to their already delicate earthly bodies? How long do they lay in the middle of the road exposed to the elements and all that can bring both hot and cold upon them? It is there Children where many lay and it is on that center painted line, that many will reside on until it is too late to be moved away from.

If they only had enough energy, life or Heavenly Help to move themselves to one side or the other for safety, they could have avoided the trauma of the cars going in both directions instead of being hit by just those driven in a single lane. Surely now I tell you, one cannot survive when one’s body lays on both sides of the line.

Do you know what I say here My Children? Seek ME to cross all streets laid with traffic. Do not cross without waiting for ME to carry and guide you there and do not try to walk to the other side on your own – you will not make it without My Almighty Hand of Protection. Wait for My Safety Lights to be on that will clearly tell you when the time of crossing is upon you and occurring. Be wide awake – do not walk in your sleep so you are alert at all times. Do not be caught off-guard by even the runaway trains that can easily overpower and harm all who have boarded and even the ones yet waiting at the platform, completely unaware of the danger upon them as they stand so close to the edge, not knowing what travels at an unstoppable speed just a few minutes ahead. Children, stand back so you are not in harms way when the tracks can no longer hold such a power onto it’s lined metal rails or else you will surely be crushed under it’s mighty weight.

Look now for the traffic comes quickly and the lights will change faster in sequence – leaving you caught in the middle deaf and blind to the offset timing the lights represent. Red will change to green without warning and green will seem to pass the yellow and onto the red which will cause collision upon collision. Do you see the intersection now and the disaster sitting within it’s center?

This is how all will be now. Do not go this crossing alone because without My Heavenly Hand, you will not arrive to the side of the road you seek in safety, nor in whole for you cannot see the dangers in advance as I can. You will not know where to place your steps to walk for you truly know not where the metal beasts comes nor the direction from where it races and travels from.

Hold My Hand – the light is about to change. Be ready on My Safe Sidewalk and I will be with you to protect you when the light “WALK NOW” is above you and telling you to “WALK”. I walk with you!

(February 6, 2014 @11:15 am)


Message – Finish The Race and Cross the Banner of Love


Transcript of Message:

Dear Ones – have no fear of the coming days upon this earth for you will be held tightly under My Wings Children. For are you not My Flock and I your Shepherd and does not a Good Shepherd lead His Sheep to safety? This is what I will do and rest easy your hearts for I will protect all My sheep. Are not those who wait for their Beloved Groom My Bride? Will she not be divinely protected? Thieves will try to steal Her Adornments – Gifts sent to her by My Father but he will not succeed for My Bride knows I will rescue her at the right time and she will arrive with all her beauty and stand in the Bridal Chamber that awaits.

Days comes now that I have spoken to many about – Days of Awe and Glory – did I not already speak this? Trust in your faith in Me, your Protector, your Lord and your Savior for I AM THE CHRIST YESHUA, JESUS OF NAZARETH who comes to sweep what is mine.

Clouds descend onto a blind earth unaware of what they carry for they watch only what their flesh shows them. They will be foolish in their watch time as they see not the Truth – they see not ME!
This is the Work of the Almighty Hand of the Father who carries out His Perfection of His Word and Promise. Blessed are the wise who have prepared for this day as you will be aware of the wolf-at-the-door! Not all have been given My Good Gifts; not all are mine but know this Children, I will offer ME to everyone who will hear but not all will have hearing. This is sad for I died and shed My Pure Blood for all to have forgiveness and eternal life but few have understood what was given freely and awaiting for them to take.

I bring these Words of Truth to be written so fear will not overtake you. You know that fear is not of Me so you must overcome this fleshly affliction that stands close…call on Me…have faith and belief in Me and My Call to you. I come as I AM, make yourselves strong in Me. I will not leave nor forsake you – do you understand these Words I give you now? Stand in them – Believe in Me and My Love for you!

Time will occur on this earth in a manner not from earthly view but from The Father’s Divine Placement so you know not my exact hour. I come to search the hearts of all mankind – this is where I will see Truth and Love that I require. Seek now release of what is not pleasing and lay it down NOW at the Foot of My Cross where the ULTIMATE SACRIFICE for your lives was given. Do not waste this Gift I offer one last time.

Chaos surely comes. Woe to these whose eyes remain scaled but blessed are those whose eyes are not. All things of evil shall come from the left and the right but not from the place where you walk – forward for that is where your Deliverer stands awaiting your feet to cross the finish line. Can you see Me there? Just a few steps more and you will be in My Glorious Arms and I will hold you there for all eternity just as I PROMISED – know this for this is Truth.

Children, open the doors to all of your hearts so My Spirit can fill all with Complete Fullness of Me. Remove any dung that remains NOW so I have complete control and filling within you. Do not lack in the faith you think may escape you at this time for you are strong in Me and your faith will hold when you look only to me – Your Christ – Your Messiah & Savior, Jesus of Nazareth. Have Divine Knowledge and Understanding of these Words Children and give Glory and Praise to your Heavenly Father on His Throne so His Will will be done for now is the time this will occur.

Be ready, don’t fall before you finish your Good Race for the Finish Line is now upon you. Run now through the Banner of Love that is crossed when your feet travel Home for I wait there to take you. Run to Me Beloved and see My Face as you cross into all I have promised. I will reward My Bride with untold beauties never seen by thine eyes. Oh how this brings joy to My Heart for My Bride has pleased her Groom and His Father. Excitement of her arrival is about the air in all Heavenly places and all that is now fully prepared is ready and waiting to shower the Children of the Most High God. May your hearts be light and your Spirit full of Good News and remember not the days of old, only the days of new that now come upon you My Faithful Bride. Open your hearts – cry to your Spirit to unfold all that Heaven holds for now is the time it will rain down upon you allowing My Great Outpouring of all that is Holy…all that is ME!

I will see you very very soon Children. Keep your gown spotless now and guard yourself with the Armor I have given you – use it well for I know you are strong in Me and stay firm in your Footing. All will come as I have promised. Peace be on your hearts and Spirit as it is time to walk to a higher place with Me. Ready yourself – ready your hearts – empty all of you so I can fill all of you for now is the time. Listen Children for this is Truth.

I love you and I will see you soon! Shalom, peace be with you and upon you.

Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth – Yeshua.

(This was posted on February 5, 2014)


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The “Crazy” That Comes to Parents Who Cannot Find Their Children~If Only We Had Faith


I was reminded today as I read a story (true story) of what a friend of mine just experienced with her daughter. Her daughter is just 12 or so years old and last week, my friend received a phone call saying that her daughter was not on the school bus, nor was she at school. My friend immediately left work frantic, receiving a call from her son saying too that her daughter had not arrived home. Fast forward 40 minutes after numerous phone calls and fearful thoughts any mother or father would have and could completely understand, were running through her mind, she finally received the phone call she longed for…the call from her daughter saying, “Hi Mom, I’m home!”

You see, her daughter was completely unaware of what had been going on over her so-called “absence” from the bus she rides every day home from school as she was on the bus the entire time! Her mother had straightened her hair that day before school, and that day it was long and straight instead of full-of-curls leaving her classmates and bus driver unable to recognize her as she sat in her seat. It was business as usual for this young girl and she had not a care in the world, allthewhile her mother was imagining the worst of the worst!

My friend said that it was about an hour later that she returned back to work, puffy eyes and all, stopping first though to think about how she did not trust in the Lord that from the start. Jesus had her always, but because she let panic set in before she had time to think…she reacted and took action but had she turned to the Lord first thing, she would have rested because He truly had her all along – He was totally on top of the situation! She was happy, safe and blissfully unaware of the danger her mother was expecting her to be in but again, He had her all along and she should have known He was always in control and would have kept her out of harm’s way. We always have to “react” (in the flesh) when it comes to our children, don’t we? We are their parent – they need us to survive, to live, to stay safe, and without us, they could never be any of those things, right? Well, Jesus just made a huge statement here and that was that they are also HIS CHILDREN and no matter what, IT IS HE THAT KEEPS THEM SAFE and regardless of how much we worry and fret, it’s all done in vain because bottom-line, THE BUCK STOPS WITH HIM!

This reminded me of the time when my son Trey, who passed away at the age of 16, was 5 years old (just turned 5) and he got lost at Six Flags in St. Louis, MO of all places! I had taken him and my daughter Tara who was 9 at the time to the enormous amusement park along with a girlfriend of mine and her son who was 8. I remember that we put the kids in the line to the Log Barrel ride that races down the water and then we carefully walked to the exit gate where they would complete their ride and it would come to a halt. I mean we were right there and could see everything they did. As we were standing there talking, here comes the kids off the ride – minus one, my five year old son Trey! I asked his sister, “WHERE’S TREY?” She looked at me, along with my friend’s son and said, “He’s with you. He got mad right after you walked away and said he was going to wait with Mom and didn’t want to ride the ride with me.” Translation: They got into a fight and Trey started pouting in his usual Trey way.

Well, you can imagine my panic, my horror and my thoughts! I made my daughter repeat this story at least 5 more times – going back and forth from the entrance to the exit and no Trey. We looked and looked, me in a flood of tears the entire time. Then, I started running through the park like a CRAZY, OUT-OF-CONTROL WOMAN screaming, “TREY! TREY!” The “Lost & Found” security department as they called it, was clear across and at the south side of this huge park and I had to have ran back and forth from that point to the far north side, where we lost him, at least 20 times…still screaming but now staring wild-eyed into total strangers faces yelling, “Have you seen a little 4 year old boy about this tall, wearing this shirt and those pants? Oh, he is beautiful and his name is Trey and are you sure you haven’t seen him?” Then, my mind went to that place we wish we could avoid but we can’t – that place of “What if someone took him to the bathroom, put a dress on him, made him look like a girl and kidnapped him from the theme park?????” Oh, I just knew that was exactly what had happened – no question in my mind! So, I ran back across the park, under 2 bridge walk overpasses (like a shady tunnel people where relaxing under and out of the hot son) for about the zillionth time, still sobbing but now, I ran faster screaming at the top of my lungs for all the hundreds of people to hear, “CLOSE THE PARK! CLOSE THE PARK! SEAL OFF THE BATHROOMS AND SEND ALL YOUR SECURITY GUARDS TO CHECK EACH ONE! CHECK EACH CHILD THAT TRIES TO LEAVE THE PARK! SOMEONE HAS MY SON, SOMEONE HAS MY BEAUTIFUL, BEAUTIFUL LITTLE BOY!” Yep, can you just imagine this and what those poor normal people sitting under that tunnel type bridge pass thought each and every time they saw this absolutely insane woman, who had “lost” her child at one of the rides (oh trust me, they all knew the story by then as it was almost 2 hours later). I still think about that – I had to look like I had truly lost my mind!

Well, we then decided to go back to the Log ride that we first were separated at for one last check and I remember I was standing there, looking every which way, trying so hard not to go all Shirley MacLaine in Terms of Endearment on, when all of a sudden, I see the top of a very small head coming up over a slight hilly walk-way. My heart started racing and when his whole face came into view, I cannot express to anyone the peace/relief and total surrender I felt. THERE HE WAS, THERE WAS MY BEAUTIFUL BABY BOY – THERE WAS MY STINKER TREY! He was walking with his head down but his eyes looking forward and wearing his signature “Trey Pout” as we called it. I yelled his name and ran in a full-force sprint until I scooped him up into my arms and kissed him all over! Part of me wanted to spank him but all of me just wanted to love every inch of him!

After I poured out my motherly, “Thank you Lord, thank you! Thank you God for bringing him back and for keeping him safe!”, I asked him what had happened, why he had left and where he had been? Now, this was the best part of the day, his response to why I almost lost my mind that day: “Well Mommy, Tara was being mean to me and she said go back to Mom and I said okay, I will. I walked back out to where you were standing and I didn’t see you so I just started walking but I was looking for you. I was walking and walking and I couldn’t find you but when I passed by the Screaming Eagle ride, there was no line so I got in it and rode the big roller coaster ride, twice!”

How does that not just tickle you to the core? He was trying to cry, feel bad and say he was sorry all at the same time, but again, he could not contain his over-the-moon smile that was so full of “YES, I RODE THAT BIG OLE’ ROLLER-COASTER NOT ONCE, BUT TWICE ALL BY MYSELF” childlike-pride!

Today, I thought of this all day and I learned a huge lesson from our Lord today. No matter how lost or bad-off we think our children will be without our protection, He is always their Main Protector and Jesus never lets them out-of-His-sight no matter what, whether we can see it or not. This reminds me of Trey now and when he first died in January 2005. I just couldn’t imagine him being by himself, so lost, so alone, so scared – what he must be going through, who is watching over him to make sure he is safe – it’s all I could think about. Well, both Trey and Jesus sure told me, didn’t they! Look who is just as safe, sound and filled with pure joy & happiness, just as they were that day I thought I completely lost him at the amusement park because again, Jesus had him all the way! I realize and know without-a-shadow-of-a-doubt that Trey has always been in the safest hands possible – God’s Hands and nothing I could do that day, when he was 5, or that day when he was 16, could ever match the ultimate love and protection and safe-keeping Trey would always receive from our Father in Heaven, never! When my flesh wants to take me back to the place of sadness, that very dark place I stayed in for way way too long, I think about and picture that little boy of 5, walking over that little hill with his head down but eyes forward, then looking at that little hidden smirk of a smile that silently told me that he had just had the time of his life! While I, his 30 year old mother (at that time) was at the point of calling in the National Guard, thinking I had let my son down and I would never see him again, he had not a care in the world – he never once thought of the bad he might or could experience, only the fun, the good and the happiness he was walking in. This is what Jesus is telling me now, walk in pure faith as Trey did that day and know unquestionably where he resides now, with Me and that regardless of my worry and sadness over his absence, he has been blessed and is blessed to live the life he now does and nothing from this earth is missed, nothing is comparable so be happy for him and never hesitate in showing joy because whatever we think they are missing in their life here on this earth, they are thinking the same about us only we are truly the ones missing out, not them, not Trey! He has it all!

So next time any of us want to worry about our children, think of Trey. When those moments come to us and we too want to start worrying over our life and trials we live and face on this earth, think of we too have waiting for us and that Jesus also has His Mighty Hands upon our daily lives and no matter who many times we want to “Call-in-the-National-Guard”, He is already here!

This picture of my son Trey was taken an hour or so before his “adventure” in the amusement park.Trey age 5 pic


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Hearing From Abba

Lessons, visions and dreams from Abba - My personal journey

Sharing Some Heavenly Help, Common Sense and Sharing the Tools for NOW

My Jesus Blog

"For GOD So Loved The World, HE Gave HIS Only Begotten Son, That Who So Ever Belived In HIM, Shall Be Saved"... John 3:16


Daily Thoughts and Meditations as we journey together with our Lord.

Bon's Blog - Hearing from God

Sharing Some Heavenly Help, Common Sense and Sharing the Tools for NOW

The Daily Post

The Art and Craft of Blogging

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The latest news on and the WordPress community.