Oh what a time we live in! Every day when I drag this broken body either off the couch or out of the bed that I slept on, my very first waking thought is “Jesus”. It takes me a few minutes to get my bearings straight to walk to the kitchen where my co-favorite drink is – my hot simmering coffee! Then, I wash my favorite tall glass out (because I use it everyday) and pour myself a glass of ice cold sweet tea (my other favorite drink) and then, I take these into the living room to set them right beside me as I begin my internet news reads for the day. I have to read everything I can find that the Holy Spirit leads me to and sometimes this can take hours or minutes, depending on where I’m led. I have to stay refreshed, renewed in what I face as a Christian in the world of today – the “Unbelieving World” that I no longer seem to belong in. My morning reading is sort of like my drinks and in the way each one quenches a certain thirst in me and the way I approach drinking them as the coffee is sipped slowly while the sweet tea seems to be gulped down. But, each have their own separate cause…coffee to wake me up and sweet tea to keep me awake!
Of course I pray during this time too and at times, they too seem to be slow, long blissful sips like my coffee, where I take my time and slowly go over each and every word I’m praying, making sure I don’t leave anything out – that I have given and asked all that I had on my heart and every blessing I needed Him to give and every sin I need Him for forgive. Then, there are mornings where my prayers are a bit like my sweet tea intake – non-stop, fast racing gulps where I seem to rush my time with the Lord so I can get to what I really need Him to do.
Do you know what I realized? When I rush and have my “sweet tea” like-prayers, I’m left feeling unsatisfied throughout the day like I need to keep going back to the Lord to give Him full explanation of what I meant, why I was asking and so on…those prayers in the morning always feel uncompleted which in turn make my heart feel burdened because I did not get everything “laid-out” so not all was given and released. These are the days where I again find myself praying over and over about everything – I guess this is due to me not cleansing or giving over all my burdens, all my questions, all my requests, all my tears, all my joy – which then meant, I wasn’t giving all my heart! Usually by mid-afternoon on these days, I end up laying on the floor, stomach & face down with a continual flow of tears that do not cease until I lay it all down and out!
Now, when I pray my “coffee” like-prayers in the morning, I seem to flow through the day, speaking to the Lord in an easy manner and asking for and about the “fresh” things on my mind and I’m not still thinking about all that I left out so my heart and spirit is open to see the illumination of the new because I’m walking with a cleansed, empty yet ready-to-be-filled heart and I anxiously await His Teaching and Filling of Him in me. See – I’m moving forward and not backwards because I left everything at the Foot of His Cross when I went there…nothing was left in my heart that would make me “back-peddle” over and over throughout the day and when you are not looking back at what you didn’t do, we look and move forward to all that He has for us, thereby able to see the answers and blessings He has waiting. I noticed that when I did this – I could not see the answers to my prayers because I was to blinded and distracted by my unreleased, uncompleted prayers.
What did I learn by this – to drink my coffee in the morning, nice and slow so I can truly take time to smell the roses.