Okay, this is good, this is REALLY REALLY GOOD! Just to show all of you that I am just like all of you, face the same disbelieving people in my life, etc., my daughter came tonight and told me something that is still ringing in my ears! I’m laughing about it, yet the same time, it bothers me that what I’m about to tell you was even thought, even worse, spoken!
My daughter told me that my very best friend from childhood, who I spent my entire younger life so close to, well, she thinks I’m on drugs, or maybe just gone a bit mad, crazy is the exact words as she is very very worried and concerned about me. Let me back up a minute…A few days before Christmas, I met my two dearest girlfriends for dinner where we had a great time. In a comment to my one friend who I will call “T”, I mentioned that I had a blog, I call it my “Jesus” Blog and told her how much I loved it, and so on. Well, she looked it up, must have read it, seen what it was really about and well, now, she is just concerned! What happened to me that I could possibly think that I had this incredibly close relationship with God?
Now, she has gone to “Church” her entire life – every Sunday if I remember correctly, Lutheran to be exact but me, well, not so much a church to call my own, right? As we got older, we grew apart and only see each other once-in-a-while yet never miss a beat in our similarities…all those things that first brought us close together as the best of friends. She has no idea now who I really am. She never cared to really know what I have searched for since the death of my son…she has no idea, even though I’ve told her many times or at least tried to, how close to the Lord I’ve become. Now, when she sees it for herself, well I’m sure, it was quite a shock because she did not know this side of me. You see, how can I possibly be blessed by God, hear from Him, learn from Him or even think any of these things are possible unless your “Godlike” or one of those people everyone thinks God would chose? See what I’m saying? She has gone to church her entire life yet knows very little about God, His Ways, His Love and His Lessons. She has no idea what the Bible says, nothing, only the memory of what she learned all those years ago sitting in that church pew next to her mother. She has no idea what is happening in this world correlates with exact events stated in the Bible, their timing and what it all means. In her lack-of-knowledge and understanding…I repeat “her” lack-of-knowledge and understanding, it becomes easy for her to go to that place of judging what she knows nothing about. If she truly knew God, truly knew who our Lord Jesus Christ really was, she would never nor could ever speak and say what she did. Who does she think He is? I will tell you…she thinks He is this character in this big book she was told to read as a child; a book she sees sit on her nightstand yet never opens because she has not a clue of it’s Author, it’s Creator and as we all know very well, people fear what they do not know.
She truly thinks “I’m on drugs”! Really? Really T? I’m laughing now because I’ve never done drugs except for when I had my 2 back surgeries and yes, I did have to take pain medication for a long time but those have been cut out for a while now and I never remember them causing me to hallucinate – so what else could it be? No drugs in my system, never even seen them up close and personal, so maybe, oh, I don’t know, I’m becoming mad or going crazy? Me, the least crazy person I know being called crazy…it’s just too funny! See, because I don’t care about the things that T cares about…her biggest worry is well, nothing. She has never had the need or opportunity to turn to the Lord for anything or at least nothing I can remember. She doesn’t know Him because He really doesn’t know her and He has not allowed her understanding of Him…not the full understanding as He has not removed the scales from her eyes. I feel so sad for her, I do, yet I’m the crazy one here!! Remember, we talked about “Wally World”! lol She grew up to be the lazy Christian – the Lukewarm that is just too smart or too scared to walk or to run to God…she takes Him for granted as she leans on her childhood Sunday School teaching as her footstool. She has no idea what she is about to face…what she is about to see and learn, the hard way.
I remember one day last summer, I went swimming with her in her pool and we had a wonderful time, laughing, talking, eating, you know, all the usual stuff friend do. Well, when I started talking about God, which I always do, I started talking about stuff of the world, what the Bible says, etc., and I remember her saying, “Oh, I’ve never heard about that. Oh, I don’t know anything about that. No, I have no idea what that means.” This was basic Bible 101 and she had not a clue. I told my daughter tonight after she shared this “news” with me that it really didn’t matter. I told her this is exactly why I don’t share with my friends and my family, exactly. They do not know me now and because they have known me my entire life, they can never believe who I am now…what my standing in God’s Kingdom is now because to them, I’m just me, nobody special that God would allow special blessings upon, let alone allow anyone they ever knew to be part of His End-Time Game Plan! Because of their lack of faith, knowledge and understanding, they think they have a right to speak about something they absolutely know nothing about, yet they truly think they do! This is why they think their opinion should matter or carry weight. Isn’t that so funny? Trust me, T is the last person I would ever let judge what I believe or don’t believe and her voice has not carried weight with me for a very long time even though I love her very very much – she has not a clue of what she just said, not a clue! She is all about this world, cares about trivial matters that I cannot even give a thought to and we all know why that is but like so many, she is in for the surprise of her life, is she not? She truly has no idea how the Lord has blessed me and how I ran after the Heart of God every single day for 9 years and it’s okay, is as it’s not for me to show her.
Remember when I told everyone that my friend said to me “Well, if that is what it takes for you to get where you need and keep you happy” after I told her about how much I study and spend time learning everything of the Lord, well, this is the same friend. I know, I know it’s too sad for words that I’m the crazy one, which still makes me crack up every single time I say it!
SO, WHO WANTS TO BUY A TICKET TO WALLY WORLD WITH ME? ANYONE? ANYONE?
Well, like Forest Gump used to say…”That’s all I have to say about that!”
Blessing and love to all my “Crazies” out there!