Merry Christmas everyone – I hope everyone enjoyed their time with their families. I’m so sorry I have not written till now…yesterday we were out all day getting toys for the 3 little ones I told you about and thanks to so many wonderful people – their Christmas was WONDERFUL! It was late last night before it was all done and by time I got back home, I was just too tired to move and I ended up speaking for a very long time over the telephone with one of our sisters-in-Christ and we had such a great conversation, thank you for that. I pulled my computer out to type and I feel asleep in motion, head back, mouth wide open and fingers on my keyboard! A few hours later, that cold came back and I was up very early just trying to get warm, my head unclogged and my throat and chest open…
I have been fighting Satan himself, I know I have. He is hot and heavy in the chase for my son and I know this. After my son went to his father’s family side Christmas Eve gathering, he was to come back here…he never did. Now I ask you, HOW DOES SOMEONE NOT COME HOME ON CHRISTMAS EVE? WHO DOES THAT? He walked in the door around 9:30 a.m. this morning, looking terrible and after confronting him like any parent would do, he just went wild…rage, defiance, just raw hatred came from his eyes, face, mouth, voice…I have no idea who this boy is. I know who is chasing him – who is trying to destroy my son because he knows the promise of God and he knows that Taylor loves the Lord with all his heart and he was going to become a Youth Pastor and now, he takes my keys to my car and I don’t see him for days. He left again today in full-on fury and told me that he was taking the car (my car) and he was never bringing it back and he was never coming back. I thought he was going to wreck the car as he peeled out down the street driving so wreckless. It’s now after 8:00 p.m. my time and I have no idea where he is. Who does that? He was not raised this way but this behavior has been typical and consistent these past few weeks and it’s getting worse…the more I do for the Lord, the harder the enemy attacks my children. I’m walking in peace, faith in all the promises my Lord Jesus gave me and there I will stand but to others around me, they cannot understand why I’m not calling the police, screaming, going as nuts as he is but what good would that do? All it would do is open a door that I, through my behavior and lack of faith, would open. I started cooking for my daughter and I, along with my older sister and have been in the kitchen all day – sitting down for the first time right now. I could not stop to type because there was no one else to do what I was doing…I’m tired today, so very very tired.
I’m tired, but I’m not worrying about what the Lord promised us and you should not worry either! Many were very upset and worried after they read Julie’s last message and I knew that was going to happen…this is why I posted a few remarks above that message. Remember where we started, when this blog and videos started and what I have said from that very first time – THESE MESSAGES/VIDEOS WERE FOR “SPECIFIC” PEOPLE – PEOPLE THAT THE LORD HAD CHOSEN, WAS CALLING AND THAT THEY WOULD FIND WHATEVER ANSWERS/COMFORT THEY NEEDED HERE. REMEMBER THAT? Just last week or so, I posted a message that stated how the Lord has heard you, is going to bless you and has SEALED YOU TOO! I keep saying this – HE CHOSE YOU – YOU DID NOT CHOSE HIM! Do not let doubt and worry in, please. I am going to do a video first thing in the morning regarding The Bride and The Church which will hopefully ease all your hearts. Please do not worry, please!
Hanukkah just really began last night, December 24th and this is the time of the Festival of Lights. The days of this Jewish Celebration is very important and crucial to the Lord – again, I will touch on this in the morning. I did read the news from all around the world yesterday and wow, wow, wow…so much going on! I’m standing strong, standing in my faith and His Promise that He will do all He has said He would do but I want you, everyone here to do the same and no not let doubt into your mind, heart, soul or spirit because it is the enemy trying to pounce on your vulnerability. All of you are searching your hearts and just searching for Jesus Christ in general or else you would not have found me. This is what He looks for – He has asked you to look to Him, withdraw from the world, love Him and be pure in your heart showing kindness and compassion to all in your path. Have you had your eyes on Him? Yes. Have you been searching for all things Him? Yes or else you would be here right now and know all that you do, regardless how little you may think you actually know. Remember, He is coming for your Heart!
What He was saying in Julie’s message was “The Church” and those that think they are “The Bride” and the difference between the two. The Church are those that we’ve been talking about – those that go to the same church every Sunday, having done so since childhood yet have learned nothing of who Jesus really is. They claim to love humanity but clearly hate the people of this world…they are the ones with 2 faces, one face they show the world and one face they show in the mirror. He is speaking of “The Church” that’s speaking words of wisdom, yet they have no true Heavenly Knowledge or even earthly knowledge really, of Jesus Christ and The Father God above but freely speak like they do – they talk-the-talk but clearly do not walk-the-walk. We all fall short, we all have days of failure but we are not FAILING! We show great strength each and every day in our constant search for everything Jesus. Sure, we may feel down at times and sure, we may screw up but we get right back up, pull our striped tube socks back up to our knees and we look straight up to Heaven and say, “I’m so sorry Lord, I messed up, you know how much I love you and how hard I try to stay in favor, stay YOUR course and do all I know you want me to do – please forgive me as I know I fall-short some days and today is one of those days but please, look in my heart, see me, cleanse me and remove anything that may cause or allow me to stumble again!” Each day, we get up and run for His Heart – we look for His Coming but those of “The Church” do not…they do not run to Him, they hide from Him. Even though they love Him – they love their life and those objects in their life more and this is what He is speaking of. I don’t see that here, I don’t and again, you were searching for Him. I will tell you this – I’ve yet to be contacted by anyone who doesn’t want ALL OF HIM – isn’t that what The Bride searches for, asks for…all of Him?
Remember, He knows you – He knows what He is getting when He comes…no big surprise so do not let worry/doubt become your friend – it is not! You’ve come too far to take a step backward…so don’t! Keep cool, calm and collect and just show Him the person HE KNOWS YOU TO BE!
I went downstairs to my daughter’s basement late morning today and kneeled down on both knees and elbows on the cold hard concrete floor. I cried so hard, prayed to Him and gave Him every burden I had. I asked for forgiveness and begged for Him to take me right then and there if I was not doing His Will…if He had changed any Words He spoke and gave because my heart could not withstand that heartache and how I gave my children to Him and would not be unfaithful in taking them back. If He had a different agenda, to please allow me release from this world so I could not see it with my heart and eyes as it would crush me. Then, I stood up and placed my feet in that concrete footing I always speak of, telling Him that I believe all His Words – All His Promises – Everything Him! I asked Him to please ease the hearts OF ALL THOSE WHO ARE HEAR – ALL THOSE THAT HE HAS SENT HERE and give all of us peace where we can stand and rest in. I heard Him say that His Word WILL STAND – NOTHING WILL CHANGE AND ALL WILL BE AS HE HAS ORDAINED! HE SAID TO STAND STRONG, BELIEVE WHAT HE HAS SAID AND DO ALL HE HAS ASKED US TO DO – HE WILL DO AS HE HAS SAID AND PROTECT ALL OF US…HE HAS SEALED YOUR NAME IN HIS BOOK, HE TOLD ME THAT OVER A WEEK AGO!
I know He is coming, I know He is. I promise I will do a video in the morning – and we can all talk about it! We are family here, I love all of you so much, I just can’t hardly stand it!!! Know your worth, know Who loves you, know Who FORGAVE you and know Who is COMING FOR YOU and leave that thought on your heart – nothing else! I do.
I’m so sorry this took me so very long – it’s been a long day but I hope everyone had a wonderful day. It was just my daughter and me, that was it but it was nice and I didn’t miss anyone or anything except the presence of my son. Pray for him, pray that the Lord hears our prayers and send His Warrior Angels to help us break the enemy’s stronghold over my son right now…I’m battling Satan head-on and I will be victorious because He that is in me IS GREATER than him that is in the world.
Love to all and thank you to those who helped this Christmas happen for the less fortunate – thank you so very much!!